Whenever I speak, the words come out in a violent outburst. "Violence and destruction!" I shout. So these messages from the LORD have made me a household joke.
And I can't stop! If I say I'll never mention the LORD or speak in his name, his word burns in my heart like a fire. It's like a fire in my bones! I am weary of holding it in!
I have heard the many rumors about me. They call me "The Man Who Lives in Terror." And they say, "If you say anything, we will report it." Even my old friends are watching me, waiting for a fatal slip. "He will trap himself," they say, "and then we will get our revenge on him."
But the LORD stands beside me like a great warrior. Before him they will stumble. They cannot defeat me. They will be shamed and thoroughly humiliated. Their dishonor will never be forgotten.
O LORD Almighty! You know those who are righteous, and you examine the deepest thoughts of hearts and minds. Let me see your vengeance against them, for I have committed my cause to you.
Now I will sing out my thanks to the LORD! Praise the LORD! For though I was poor and needy, he delivered me from my oppressors.
Yet I curse the day I was born! May the day of my birth not be blessed.
I curse the messenger who told my father, "Good news -- you have a son!"
Let him be destroyed like the cities of old that the LORD overthrew without mercy. Terrify him all day long with battle shouts,
for he did not kill me at birth. Oh, that I had died in my mother's womb, that her body had been my grave!
Why was I ever born? My entire life has been filled with trouble, sorrow, and shame.