Philemon 1:13

13 I wanted in the worst way to keep him here as your stand-in to help out while I'm in jail for the Message.

Philemon 1:13 Meaning and Commentary

Philemon 1:13

Whom I would have retained with me
At Rome, where the apostle was a prisoner:

that in thy stead he might have ministered unto me in the bonds of
the Gospel;
the apostle was in bonds, not for any crime, for any immorality he had been guilty of, but for the sake of the Gospel, for professing and preaching that; for this he was an ambassador in bonds, as he elsewhere says, ( Ephesians 6:20 ) . Now he would have kept Onesimus with him, either to have waited upon him, in his bonds, and to have provided for him the necessaries of life; or to have assisted him in the ministration of the word, in the room of Philemon, who, had he been there, would have been employed in such service; so that if the apostle had retained him, he would have been acting not for himself, but in the room of his master, and doing what he should have done, had he been on the spot. This the apostle observes to prevent an objection that might have been made; that since Onesimus was become so profitable to him, why did he send him back? why did he not keep him for his own service? this he obviates and removes, by signifying he should have done it, but for the following reason.

Philemon 1:13 In-Context

11 He was useless to you before; now he's useful to both of us.
12 I'm sending him back to you, but it feels like I'm cutting off my right arm in doing so.
13 I wanted in the worst way to keep him here as your stand-in to help out while I'm in jail for the Message.
14 But I didn't want to do anything behind your back, make you do a good deed that you hadn't willingly agreed to.
15 Maybe it's all for the best that you lost him for a while. You're getting him back now for good -
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