Ben Sira 51:19

19 My soul grappled with wisdom, and in my conduct I was strict; I spread out my hands to the heavens, and lamented my ignorance of her.

Ben Sira 51:19 In-Context

17 I made progress therein; to him who gives wisdom I will give glory.

18 For I resolved to live according to wisdom, and I was zealous for the good; and I shall never be put to shame.

19 My soul grappled with wisdom, and in my conduct I was strict; I spread out my hands to the heavens, and lamented my ignorance of her.

20 I directed my soul to her, and through purification I found her. I gained understanding with her from the first, therefore I will not be forsaken.

21 My heart was stirred to seek her, therefore I have gained a good possession.